Mozart and Leadbelly
    In the early sixties, many of my colleagues were leaving the United   States for Europe, Africa, Mexico, and so on, where they planned to   write their great novels. They felt that America had become too   money-crazed for them to live here and concentrate on their work. I   was supposed to leave in the summer of 1962 with a man and his wife   for Guadalajara, Mexico. I had been working on Catherine Carmier for   three years but was getting nowhere with it. I had written it from an   omniscient point of view, a first-person point of view, and a   multiple point of view. I had changed the plot many times. Nothing   seemed to work, and I figured it was because I needed to get away   from the country, as my friends were doing. I was working at the post   office during the summer of 1962 when my friend and his wife left for   Mexico; I told them that I had to make some more money first, and   that I would join them before the end of the year.
    But something happened that summer of 1962 that would change my life   forever. James Meredith enrolled at the University of Mississippi.   Every night we watched the news--my family, my friends, and I--and it   seemed that we cared for nothing else or spoke of nothing else but   the bravery of this one young man. It seemed that when we spoke of   his courage, I felt family and friends looking at me. Maybe it was   just my sense of guilt. One night in October or November, I wrote my   friends in Mexico a letter: "Dear Jim and Carol, I am sorry but I   will not be joining you. I must go back home to write my book. My   best wishes, Ernie."
    I contacted an uncle and aunt in Baton Rouge, Louisiana, and they   told me I could come and stay as long as I wanted to. So on January   3, 1963, a friend of mine drove me to the train station in Oakland,   California, and fifty-two hours later I was in Baton Rouge. I had   come back to Louisiana twice since leaving in 1948, but each time for   only a week or two, and both times I lived with relatives out on the   plantation where I was born. This time it would be for six months,   and this time I would stay in town. I was determined to live as all   the others did, and if that meant demonstrations and a run-in with   the police, then let it be so. But at that time very few civil rights   demonstrations were going on in Baton Rouge. And if the police did   show up, they stood back watching but never tried to interfere   physically with the gathering.
    Uncle George and my Aunt Mamie had a four-bedroom house, and there   were other people living in the house: their son, Joe, and three   other nephews. Each Sunday we would drive out into the country to the   old place where I was born and raised until I left for California. We   would visit the old people, who would have dinner waiting for   us--chicken, greens, rice, beans, a cake--and we would have lemonade   and all sit down in the kitchen eating and talking. Then I would   leave them and I would walk through the quarter back into the fields,   and I would cross the rows where the cane had been cut looking for a   stalk of cane that might have been left behind. On finding one I   would peel it with my knife and chew it slowly, enjoying the   sweetness of it. I would look back across the rows and remember when   my mother and father and all the others in the quarter used to work   these same fields.
    And I would turn and look toward the quarter back at the cemetery   where my folks had been buried for four generations, and I would go   into the cemetery and look for pecans. If I found some I would crack   them with my teeth as I had done as a small child and I would feel   very comfortable and safe there because that is where Aunty, who had   raised me, was buried. I did not know the exact place because the   grave had never been marked, but I would feel more peace at that   moment than I ever did in California.
    By eight o'clock each weekday morning everyone except me would have   left the house for work or school, and I would have the entire place   to myself, along with my ballpoint pens, unlined yellow paper, and   Royal portable typewriter. I would think about Catherine Carmier and   Jackson and their families and loves and prejudices, and I would   rewrite everything that I had written in San Francisco the past four   years. I would work until about three or three-thirty and put   everything away until the next day. Not long after arriving in Baton   Rouge, I was introduced to a group of schoolteachers, and in the   early evenings we would meet in restaurants, where we would sit and   talk. When I was not with this group, I would go to a bar to join my   uncle and his friends. My uncle worked as a janitor for one of the   local oil companies near Baton Rouge. By my uncle's friends I mean   ride hard laborers--those who did the dirty work. I would join them   in a bar, and we would have a setup, which was a pint of whiskey, a   bowl of ice, a pitcher of water, and maybe a bottle of 7 UP or   Coca-Cola, and each man fixed his own drink. Many times when I   reached into the bowl to get ice, I noticed bits of sand and gravel   in the bottom of the bowl. At first I was apprehensive; maybe I did   not need ice after all. But after looking at these guys, who appeared   pretty healthy to me, I concluded that a little dirt would not kill   me either.
    Baton Rouge was a dry town on Sundays; so I, along with some of the   younger men, would go across the Mississippi River into Port Allen,   down to the White Eagle bar. The White Eagle was a rough place, and   there were always fights, but I wanted to experience it all. One   novel, Of Love and Dust, and a short story, "Three Men," came out of   my experience at the White Eagle bar. I knew now why I'd had such   difficulty writing my novel in San Francisco; I had lost touch with   this world that I wanted to write about. After living in Baton Rouge   for six months, traveling across Louisiana, fishing in the river,   hunting in the swamps, eating in small caf*s, drinking in bars,   writing five hours a day, five days a week, I was ready to go back to   San Francisco to finish my novel. By then I had received an education   in Louisiana history, geography, sociology, and its people that my   books in California never could have given me and my running away to   Mexico would not have helped. I started collecting blues records   while attending San Francisco State College in the mid-fifties and   inviting friends to my room to listen to the music. Most of the   whites would listen to the records out of curiosity; this was before   the Rolling Stones of England had made white America aware of the art   and value of black blues singers. The white boys and girls of San   Francisco wanted to listen because it was "exciting." However, very   few of my African American friends from the college wanted to listen   to it at all because they wanted to forget what those ignorant   Negroes were singing about. They had come to California to forget   about those days and those ways.
    A lady friend of mine in Washington, D.C., once told me that she knew   a young African American male who would always get in an elevator   whistling a tune of Mozart. I, too, like Mozart; I like Haydn, Bach,   Brahms, Schubert, Chopin. I like Pictures at an Exhibition by   Mussorgsky, A Lark Ascending by Ralph Vaughan Williams--I like them   all. And though Mozart and Haydn soothe my brain while I write,   neither can tell me about the Great Flood of '27 as Bessie Smith or   Big Bill Broonzy can. And neither can describe Louisiana State Prison   at Angola as Leadbelly can. And neither can tell me what it means to   be bonded out of jail and be put on a plantation to work out your   time as Lightnin' Hopkins can. William Faulkner writes over one   hundred pages describing the Great Flood of '27 in his story "Old   Man." Bessie Smith gives us as true a picture in twelve lines. I am   not putting Faulkner down; Faulkner is one of my favorite writers,   and what Southern writer has not been influenced by him in the past   fifty years? What I am saying to that young man who found it   desirable to whistle Mozart in the elevator is that there is some   value in whistling Bessie Smith or Leadbelly.
    After publishing Catherine Carmier, my first novel, I tried   publishing my Bloodline stories. Bloodline in the title means the   common experience of all the male characters from the youngest to the   oldest; they were all part of the same experience in the South at   that time, between the 1940s and the 1960s. I thought that the   stories were good enough and long enough to make a book. My editor,   Bill Decker at Dial Press, felt the same way, but he told me that I   needed another novel out there before he would publish the stories.   Catherine Carmier had not sold more than fifteen hundred copies,   which meant that hardly anyone had heard of the book. "Write a   novel," the publisher told me, "and we will publish both the novel   and the stories." "But those stories are good," I said; "they will   make my name." "We know that," they said, "but no one knows your name   now and we need a novel first."
    On the plantation where I grew up in the forties were some tough   people and mean people and hardworking people; they could load more   cane, plow a better row, control their women--most of them would brag   about having more than one woman. When the plantation system changed   to sharecropping, many of these people left the plantation for the   big cities, and there was always news about them getting into fights   and getting themselves killed or sent to Angola State Prison for   life. H (yes, that is a name) was one of those tough guys; he was   tall, very handsome, and tough. He was shot point-blank when he was   trying to climb through a window after hearing that his woman was   with another man. Two or three months after this happened, I was back   in Louisiana, and a group of us went over to the White Eagle bar. One   of my friends pointed to a guy three tables away from us and said,   "That is the fellow that killed H." "What the hell is he doing here?"   I asked. "Shouldn't he be in jail?" "He was the good nigger," my   friend said. "You don't have to go to the pen when a good nigger   kills a bad nigger. A white man can pay your bond and you work for   him for five to seven years."
    I could not get that image of this guy sitting there in his blue silk   shirt, blue slacks, and two-toned shoes from my mind, and back in San   Francisco one day while listening to Lightnin' Hopkins and "Tim   Moore's Farm," I thought about this guy at the White Eagle who had   killed H. Suppose now, just suppose, I said to myself, you take a guy   like this and you put him on a plantation to work off his time under   a tough, brutal white overseer: what do you think would happen   between the two of them? I wrote a first draft of this novel in three   months and sent it to New York. My editor sent it back to me with   this note: "I liked the first part of your manuscript; I liked the   second part of your manuscript. However, the two parts have nothing   in common but the characters. In the first half you have a tragedy;   in the second, a farce. Go back and do it one way or the other; stick   to tragedy." I wrote him back, "But the State of Louisiana did not   see this as a tragedy. I have proof of that." Bill wrote back, "Too   bad for the State of Louisiana."
    And he was right about the novel. The first half was serious, the   second was not. But I thought that if the State of Louisiana would   not take the death of this young man seriously, why shouldn't I make   a farce out of it? "Your Marcus killed another human being," Bill   said; "you let him con the people on that plantation every way that   he can, then you let him escape with the overseer's wife. No, that is   not right; he should pay, or in this case let's take a different   route." What happened in reality was that I rewrote the novel in   three months and sent it back to Bill. He said that I had improved it   100 percent, but he told me to run it through the typewriter one more   time, and he would publish both the novel and the Bloodline stories.
    Bloodline is the beginning of going back into the past. I realized   after writing Catherine Carmier that I had only touched on what I   wanted to say about the old place and the people who lived there. My   own folks are African, European, and Native American; they had lived   in the same parish for four generations before me. My siblings and I   are the fifth generation, and my brother's children are the sixth.   There are no diaries, journals, letters, or any written words left by   the old people, but there are people on that plantation who could   tell me about my grandparents' grandparents and about the other old   people of that time. Some of the stories were horrible, others were   funny, but they were educational.
    Until I was fifteen, I lived with my aunt, Miss Augusteen Jefferson.   Because my aunt could not go to other people's houses, they would   come to our house. They would talk and talk and talk, and I would   listen. When there was no school and I was not needed in the fields,   I often was kept at the house to make coffee or serve water. I also   wrote letters for the old people. I have been asked many times about   when I started writing, and for years I said I started at the age of   sixteen. Now that I think back, I started writing on that plantation   at the age of twelve.								
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